school is starting again... and as the semesters go by, it's slightly alarming to suddenly realize that year 3 is commencing on monday. it's time to print notes, check out reading lists, and scour the used textbooks forum for cheap buys again.
but this feeling of oldness doesn't really hit you until you start seeing all the freshmen coming into hall, gather in groups and mingle like high-energy molecules starting a new life in a totally new environment, bouncing off the walls and colliding with each other, forming new bonds and complexes.
all excited and ready to go, are these young things with fresh blood coursing through their veins... but the dynamics are changing for me. i feel increasingly tired trying to keep up with the events, such as the orientations camps, barbecues, and the games of charades at the rooftop etc.
much like a stable compound slowly formed over time, you can think of me as an inert gas molecule floating about in the entropy.
it is not that i have decided to no longer support the block in her events and become a hermit though; i guess it is just a shift in focus onto other things. this upcoming semester before i fly on exchange to manchester, i will have to focus on different things as a year 3 student, much unlike the so-called freshman and sophomore years. (incidentally, in the west they still refer to year 3 students as juniors, but that's just a sidetrack piece of info and besides, i don't really feel very 'junior' in any case.)
which brings me back in time as i think about the first year i stepped into sheares hall, plus the goals and different motivations i had back then. we all just wanted to experience hall life and all the funny things people said occurred only in hall, so perhaps in the beginning, the intention was just to make friends and have fun being a university student for the first time! and then these focuses changed slowly over the semesters, both academic-wise as well as the other various aspects... i guess everybody has their own motivations for doing the things that they do.
anyway, these past two weeks i haven't really blogged, so i think i must have been rather busy... similarly, the forecast for whatever's left of august is expected to be hectic and packed; there are just so many things that need to be done and completed by the end of the month :\
in fact, a few months ago i was in quite a dilemma...
this girl i knew, started becoming a real close friend and we began to hang out pretty often. i could read her like an open book, effortlessly follow her train of thought, and even predict her moves so easily, it was uncanny... but we felt so comfortable being around each other. eventually, it was only a matter of time before feelings developed, and i really did like her a lot (o:>
but the thing was, we would be separated for a year.
ultimately, i decided to take a chance and give the impending year-long LDR period a shot. went for it as early as possible, so that we would have more time together before the separation... and that was the intention.
but a few months ago, i still had half a year.
now, that time is almost all used up.
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